The Journal still is a bunch of paper sheet handwrited and a little bit torn. The sheets don't follow any chronological order and they aren't more then notes that he pretends to put togheter some day.

Entry #1 - Something is going on

My dear Journal (always wanted to write that), since I've arrived here in Sanctuary i'm becoming more and more known by the good people that live here. I've met very interesting people and have made good friends and some enemies too. Well, maybe enemies is not the best word, let's say that there are some people that I don't like. Note: Maybe a discussion about some paladins could be done later.

Nevertheless, love occupy the most part of my heart, love for the people and their personalities, love for the life and their surprises, love for freedom and most important, love for joy. Talking about love, talking about life surprises, talking about joy, I must say a few words about Ruby (The Great Cannonball). I don't remember clearly where I've met this, at first look, strange girl, if it was at the Rock Bottom, if it was at some adventure, I can not really remember. But Ido remember that one day I saw here and, in one impulsive act (I'm very good at that), I gave her a flower. The next thing I remember is that we were together, fighting some Trolls, each one with a bow. After that, I have some sort of argue with one blonde bitch and she took my side, surprisingly (for me, of course).

Then we started to be always together and something changed, I think, for both (me and her). I started to miss her and our talks and drinks at Rock Bottom, always preceded by a toast. So, at one day she had some sort of misunderstanding with an Orc and I had another argue with the Blonde Bitch and we found ourselves close to each other in a hug. Well, I totally felt something different at that time and saw me looking to a beautiful woman close to me. A woman that used to be just a good friend...

Well, you know me my good journal, I am a man of action. I do not wait for things to happen, I just go and make them happen. That's why Tymora always smiles on me! So I started to bring her closer to me and look into her eyes and talk to her about the way I was feeling about us. Things got confused, she didn't return a kiss and I thought that all was lost. Suddenly she asked me to not leave and she said that she wanted to talk to me. I was pretty sure that she'll give me the "just friend routine" (man, I hate that) when she said that she like me too... She just wasn't accustomed to relationships and she was affraid. At this time I have to thank my parents for my ability to think fast and talk even faster (if that's possible). I just said that we already were in a relationship since we were always together, caring with each other and something like that. Joy and glory, she smiled at me, I took her in my arms and we kiss. At this time she returned...

Now she's is missing and i'm very worried about it... Where are you my sweet Cannonbally? Where?

[some words wrote at a manner that it is impossible to understand, even for Jon]

[here the sheet presents some marks just as someone spilled some drops of water on it, maybe tears]

Here his calligraphy is kinda difficult to read. It seems that he wrote it with hurry, maybe he had urge to talk about it.

Entry #2 - She's back!

My dear Journal (yeah, that's your name now) today i had one of the happiest days of my life. My Dear Bally (yes, i've called her Bally without even noticed and then she called me hunnybun, i don't know if she was serious or she was joking) came back!

I've made some kind of a scandal when I saw her, but what a guy in love could do? It was a little odd, i do not know how to act but I think I did good, we talk and hug and kiss and later we drink. I've made my number one toast now "To the Great Ruby Cannonball" and we had so much fun. When I told people that she was my girlfriend she fainted. In fact she fainted twice when I said something spicy to her (that i will not tell you Journal, do not insist).

Well after all that excitement i've received the notice that my first book (Jon Jovem's "Not So Happy" Tales) was finally ready. Here I must congratulate the good work done by the Scribe, a masterpiece I would say! I quickly got some and went to The Rock Bottom to make the book advertising. Well, i'm happy to say that all the units that I had were imediatelly sold and several people asked me to sign their copies. To Bally I've signed: "A new book for a new love, I hope that both last long" (or something like that). Now tell me, I'm good or what Journal?

Finally, to finish my day I was in some kind of palace. Some guy told us that he had found a way out of Sanctuary then my Agent (Seeker) heart acelerated, I've asked Agent 666 (Ruby Bally) and then we left our seats towards our destiny. Well, she's a great girl, but she's also a great warrior. I feel a little ashamed of myself when I saw her acting and doing stuff. She's very good at hide and she has some special attacks with her bow. But I must say that I was not bad. I've healed the fighters at the front and I singed very well and summoned some monsters to help us. I did really good today!

[here we have some drawings that apparently means nothing, maybe his mind was wandering far away from here]

Entry #3 - Ressurected

My dear Journal, last time I was at the Hold I told Bally that I've never had the experience of been ressurected. Well, today I cannot say the same, I've fall at the Dunwarren Staircase.

I left the confort at the Rock Bottom to go there with some stupid idiots (no more stupid then I was but still). I said the group leader: "We aren't strong ebough!". He didn't listen to me and, minutes ago, I found myself at The Fugue Plane, surrounded by spirits and that stuff.

Now, I've learned my lesson! I'll never more risck my neck to help a bunch of idiots.

[here we can see a draw of one bard wearing purple with a sword over his head]

The handwriting here is very difficult to read, looks like the writter was having some problems to control his hands... Maybe he was shaking or drunk

Entry #4 - In the bottle

My Journal, everything is falling appart. I sense Ruby even and even more away from me. I think she will kick me soon and I'm sad. Twice, twice since I've arrived at Sanctuary.

Yesterday, also, i have fallen three times and as a consequence of that, i've somehow, forget good part of my spells. I'm useless! I'm so useless that maybe a rat could kill me.

Tymora is just laughing at my face and the Ale is the only friend that I have now! Well, let me give her some reason to laugh about the clown...

[here we have an straight line, like he had follow sleep]

Entry #5 - The mad sailor

My dear Journal, today was a okay day. I did some interesting things like saving The Ale Factory from a bunch of goblinoids. That was really good, since ale is the only thing that makes me get up bed every morning (or something, we never know). I helped to free it and then, I've drinked a few bottles and just forget all my troubles.

Well, I was almost forgetting to tell you that the stupid clown here went to the Blue Mushroom Inn just to look at the boats and remember her... I'm really pathetic.

After all that, some crazy girl that I've never seen before tried to give me some advices, can you believe it? An Sailor (Tymora must be kidding me) that decided to pose as a paladin or priest told me to stop drinking and tried to give me some wise advices without any ask of my part... I asked her if she was a pirate (i know this type of people, they're all tanned and they talk in such a characteristic way) and she said that sailors and pirates are different people, well, they look alike to me. After that, she said that she want to show me something and lead me to the Arena.

When we get there she said that I must stop to drink. Well, I told her just what I've said to you: "You barelly knows me! Leave me alone!" She started to shoot me with her bow and I did nothing, I just wait for my destiny. At this moment, Mr. Fyrian (he's boring me with my helmet, always asking for me to take it out) and Mrs. Merien, who is a kind lady and want to help and she stopped to shoot... So, after that, hours of boring conversation till the time I couldn't take anymore. Then I just ran away from them... Do you think that's over? Nope! The sailor girl ran after me and shot one more time. I'm glad that I had some invisibility potion that I drank. I was finally free...

About her, well, she is missing again, with good part of my clothes, my bow and some gold that I was carrying in that day. I've put some posters at the town Inn and I'm waiting for it to be anwsered.

The Stupid Clown

Entry #6 - The mad sailor (part two) or The two sides of a coin

Well, well, well, my dear Journal. How could I forget that a coin has indeed two sides? Me, a Tymora follower, life is really extraordinary, isn't it?

Yesterday I met her again, the one that I've loved once and the one that I thought will be with me always. Well, my dear Journal, I've just confirmed what I already knew: She does not like me in a romantic way. So, I did what I do better, I drank!

The whole thing becames a mess another time, Kass tried to talk to me, Verisa tried to give me one lesson at the Arena and then, suddenly, no more than suddenly she appeared in front of me, took out my helmet and gave me a kiss. I become confused and tried to push her but I must confess that I enjoyed it. Then I invited her to talk at the Grotto and there we went.

I was confused, i couldn't understand how a girl that barelly knows me would have any feelings about me. I asked her to tell me her name (i did not know yet) and she said that it was Leaf. I told her that I still had feelings about the other one and asked for some time to put my mind straight. She smiled at me (at the same time Tymora did, i'm pretty sure) and said that she'll be there for me and that she'll wait the time that I need. I smiled back, took her hand and gave her an intense kiss.

After that I got rid of my helmet, my robe and there he was, The Good Old Jon Jovem was back, baby!

Jon Jovem

[here we have some drawings of a tanned short elf]

Entry #7 - Paladins

Hello again my dear Journal, today I occupied all my time with a big quarrel with Kaddaz and some other asslickers of Paladins. I've made a simply commentary about some characteristics of Paladins ans Whores. I said that they have similarities since both help people, each one in their own way. Well, the paladins do not liked to be compared to whores even when I tried to explain my point of view. I said before and I'll repeat now: Both classes help people in their own way!

Nevertheless, some people who didn't listen to all the conversation, like Kyle (who I tought was my friend) started to judging me without even ask and without even listen to the two versions. The Paladins just said that I called Jallia (a good friend of mine) a whore. Here I must ask where's the sense of find the real truth and wheres the sense of the justice that all those people clame to have.

I tried to apologize, a hundred of times, but they listened to me? No, they got me judged and condemned yet. Of course, I am a Bard, I'm not a Paladin all Myght. They are so pathetic that Kaddaz invited me to go to the Arena, well, he knows that he can handle a sword much better than I do. This is not be a coward? It's not the same thing that I invite a children to figth me? They're good people yes...

This is a kind of thing that really bores me about Sanctuary, we have a rogue and a paladin in a quarrel, someone who missed the start of everything will arrive, which side he'll take? I think that the answer is pretty clear here. Those peoples must know that paladins are people too! They do commit mistakes, they're not always right about everything. Sometimes I do like that all the Paladins think the same way. That they're superior.

Latter, my friend Drasha talked to me and asked me to apologize (again) with Kaddaz. So I did. I tried to explain that i do not meant to offend him or Jallia or everybody else. Well, he didn't take the apoligies and do not apologized to me since he called "scum". There you go again, why a Knight, a Paladin, whatever, why they can't apologize to someone again? Here, I'll give you the same answer again: They do think that they're the best person in the world!

Well, dear Journal, I just know that I'm a good man, a nice man, a man who always help the others, but I have one problem I think for myself, I'm a free soul and many people have problems with that! Nevertheless, I'm really upset, because I am friend with some Paladins, like Fyrian (I think he's the last one now).

About Leaf, i did not saw her anymore... About Her (Ruby) we talked today and that was okay... I think I'll get over here very soon, but I'm still a little bit sad about the whole situation.

Jon "The Society Enemy" Jovem

Entry #8 - Back to Life

Well My dear Journal, another day another coin is what I say! I'm happy to tell you that my life is finally becoming what it was some days ago. I've remembered some spells that I had forgot after some falls in battle and I've learned some new ones. I don't know what happened, but I can't heal like I was used to (maybe this is some consequence of my lack of patience with some men and women of Gods). In other hand I can make the swords a little stronger than they really are and now I can call a friend of mine (I like to call him "Bettley") everytime I'm in need of some help in a battle. Another thing that happened is that I can sing much more than I was used to, maybe because I'm a little more happy now than I was some days ago. And everytime I sing, in a battlefield, I feel that all my friends feel more stronger and that they do fight with more will than usual.

Well my dear Journal, but I think that you are dying to know how about my heart is going, aren't you? Well, I must say that I really don't know. I never saw Leaf again and I'm wandering if she was not some sort of trick of my imagination or some kind of spirit sended by Tymora to save me from destruction... She's like an illusion to me now. About Ruby, well... We are still in some kind of relationship, a friendship yes, but I cannot stop to look at her as a beautiful woman that she is (now she's wearing a red suit that matches perfectly with her hair and she looks fantastic). Sadly, she acts almost like a boy and most of the times she pretends or seems to be a person with no gender defined. I think that kind of behaviour attracts me more and more and I'cant avoid to remember our kiss and all the time we were together... Today we went to The Blue Mushroom and we went to see those boats and some sort of sadness took place on me, I've got a urge to run and to cry and, luckly, I've found a helmet, just like the one that I used to wear. So I put it and then I could let the tears go, it was odd.

Oh, my dear Journal, I was almost forgot to tell you that something really odd occurred to me one day ago. I went to Lord Bunge, in order to buy some arrows, when one spider suddenly arised and attacked me from behind. I became froze till the bones but I've managed to scape and returned to Town still alive. I think that episode was quite unusual and I think that it could be some kind of ambush. But if it was, I really don't know why since all my "enemies" are people that cannot summon spiders or such things and a thief has no reason to attack me since I do not have any gold or any valuable stuff.... It's indeed a mistery!

JJ

Entry #9 - For Tymora and For Me

I'm happy today dear Journal! I'm happy cause I did the right thing, the thing that I had to do some time ago: I told her the way I feel! Here I will write what I wrote for her (I will write in red just like her hair and her clothes):

Dear Ruby,

I tried to, I tried hard, but I think I will never be able to forget you and to forget what happened between us. I really think we are soulmates and I really think I do not have to explaind that to you since we have so much in common (our ideas, our way of thinking and our urge for freedom for example).

I do understand that you cannot be in a relationship, not in the way I wanted to and I'm not asking you that. In fact, I'm not asking for nothing, I just wanted to say this: I Love you! And I just want to be around you as a friend if that is all that I can get.

With Love, Jon

After that, my dear Journal, she went at the Rock Bottom and talked to me. She said that she was mad with herself and that she felt guilt to not retribute my feelings about her (the last part of the sentence she didn't said but one does not have to be a genious to understand). I told her that everything was okay and that I knew that nothing would change but I just had to tell her. After that we had some drink to remember the old times, we made a toast and now I'm relieved just because I've told her. If i die tomorrow i'll be happy just cause I told her.

Now the ball is in her court, I think that she'll just run away from the ball or something like that... I think that nothing will happen but if this is the truth at least is not my fault because I did something. May Tymora smiles on me one more time.

Jon Jovem the Impulsive

[here we have some drawings of a couple in red clothes running and laughing in a green field towards a ship]

Entry #10 - The Contest

My dear Journal, I'm here to say that I've decided to participate the literature contest that is being organized by Miss Ariwyn Yevastel. In fact I've already sended my Novel to her and I think I have good chances to win the bigger prize. But here I must confess to you that I'm not looking for gold this time, I just want the fame. To do so I have one great idea: To donate the gold prize to the Library and, in exchange for that, have my name in some kind of a plate at the Library wall or maybe an statue, or maybe an entire room of the building, The Jon Jovem Room. How about that? But first of all I must win the contest, I must admit that this is the main part of my plan. May Tymora smile on me one more time.

About my heart. Well, I'm trying to be nice and good to her and I'm trying to do my best to take her attention but I do not see any progress in making her like me. Nevertheless I'm not quitting and I never will. I will have Ruby's heart one day. I know that! I just love that girl.

Jon Jovem

PS.: Ah, now I can call some others friends to help me in a fight and I have some other tricks, for example, I can desappear and I can be quicker just saying some magic words.

[The writing here is nothing more than notes wrote in some kind of hurry]

Entry #11 - The Pyrimo Inn

We are the Arena, some misunderstanding occurred and now the manager wants us to fight some Orc that I think is his employer.

Miss Alia will be the first one, I've casted some spells to help her and she won.

I just fought the Orc, I was really close to defeat him but I've lost. Not bad for just a joke teller. But I think this is my end somehow.

The others companions won their battles too and they're teleported by the manager from outside the building, I think. I had no chance to say goodbye neither asked them to say goodbye to Ruby too....

But [here he stopped writing]

[the papers are more torn than they were at the beggining, they were found by Angus Jovem near the Pyrimo Inn]

[the writing is uniform and very organized, we have no drawings and no attemptives to decorate it]

Entry #1 - Jon is dead

I've found this Journal near the river and now, good part of my doubts got cleared. My name's Angus Jovem and I'm Jon's half-brother, we have, had, the same father. I've come to the city of Sanctuary looking for him and now he's dead. We never got along, we were so different and now he's dead. I do not regret of nothing but I must say that I'm a little bit sad and a little bit relieved since the competition reach its end. Jon always was the good guy, the loved guy, the funny guy, the one that everybody liked and remembered and I was only the Jon's boring brother. Now he's dead and now I'll revenge him, I'll promise.

Reading his Journal I could find something about him and his life down here. He had some close friends that I hope will help me in my investigations. He mentioned some lady in red or with red hair that he was in love with, funny, today I met two girls like that but just one of them talked like a pirate, she must be the Ruby one. I must talk to her someday... I asked a few more people if they know Jon and almost everybody said yes, his dreams of fame and glory were getting shape but now he's dead, the world and the life do not make any sense indeed... It looks like he wrote a book too, I must get some copy some day, he used to be good in that kind of crap.

About me? Well, the boring brother got himself some works and is doing what he does best: staying alive even without care much about it.

Angus Jovem

Entry #2 - The Tale

Today I've found some of the works done by Jon mixed up with parts of his former Journal that now I'm using myself. I have found this text:

The adventures of Who

He wakes up at the middle of nowhere. He cannot tell if it is night or day, he cannot tell which day is this day. It looks like tomorrow, he thinks, but smells like yesterday. He looks relieved when he decides that this day is today.

He starts to think about his friends. He cannot tell where they are, in fact he cannot tell who they are, he cannot remember very well. There where some Dwarf? Maybe. There where some Orc? Maybe. There where some Snigwelder? What is an Snigwelder, for god’s sake? He cannot tell.

He starts to remember the dialogue that he had with the Drummer Boy, some days ago. He starts to think why the Drummer Boy was playing a lute instead of a drum. He cannot tell. He remembers the exactly words and circumstances of his meeting with the Drummer Boy. He was walking in a road when he spotted him. He was seated in a rock. Wait a minute, which one was seated and which one was walking? He cannot tell.

The Drummer Boy was playing a lute. Was he playing a happy song? He cannot tell. Was he playing a sad song? He cannot tell. He was playing in fact? He cannot tell. The Drummer Boy was playing a song in his lute, a song about birdies and candles when he looked at him and smiled. Who looked at who? Who smiled? He cannot tell.

The Drummer Boy said:

_ Hi, my name’s Lute Boy and I like to play the Flute. What’s your name good Sir? _ Who. Answered him. _ You Sir, I want to know your name. Said the Drummer Boy. _ Who. Answered him again. _ Dear Sir, I think that isn’t any other people here. I want to know your name. Said another time the Drummer Boy. _ I just said it: Who!

The Drummer Boy just shook his head muttered something and left as he said:

_ Odd people we find here.

Who said the last sentence? Who. Who? He cannot tell. Which one could not tell? He cannot tell.

He started to open his eyes (all of these thoughts and reflections were made with his eyes closed he had just woke up but his eyes were closed all this time). He looked at himself. Who am I? Who. Who? I cannot tell. He started to run and cry:

_ I cannot tell! I cannot tell!

What happened to Who after this? I cannot tell!

I must try to contact the Miss that he mentioned, the one from the committee of the writing contest.

About me, I left a letter to the Cannonball one at the Rock Bottom Inn. I hope that she could help me in some way. I'm trying to survive down here trying to gain some money and I'm training hard to be able to fight the foes that killed Jon.

Angus

Entry #3 - A question

Many things happened today, maybe it's better to enumerate them:

1 - I was at the Rock when some brain-dog arised and some people were trying to find it. I got myself with some bald guy at that room between the Rock entrance and the stairs (to Grotto and bedrooms) and I've opened the door to the bedrooms when he called me stupid. I warned him once to not do that again. After that he called stupid another time so I punched him some times till some people arrived and I stopped. The dog was not found and the bald came and invited me to go to the arena. We got there and I've beat him up and I've spit over him after that. He started to say that all things would be different if he had slept before we fight and I just said: "Do not talk to me anymore". He did that and I stopped to care about him.

Few hours later some lady was looking for him at the Rock and I went to talk to her. She said that he had robbed her and attempted to kill her too. Well, now I have a good reason to chase him. I've asked her if she wanted a bodyguard for free and she said yes till she found some watch private.

I don't know his name, but I remember his face and I will kill him if I found him, at least I'll gonna hurt him bad and take him to the Law Forces.

2 - In the middle of it I had my first conversation with a person down here in Sanctuary. I don't know why, but I felt confortable in talking with that Lady. I think her name is Dezrina or something like that. I was looking for some Seeker member at their Hall when I've found her reading a book. I've talked to her and somehow I've found myself doing some commentaries about my life and my way of thinking and being. Then she asked me something:

What do you enjoy? What do you like to do when you're not working?

It's incredible! I couldn't answer this question! I don't like to do nothing! I don't have any hopes, any dreams, I don't have nothing. I realize that I'm only looking for Jon and to revenge Jon to fill my empty nonsense life. I know that now I'm occupying my time writting here but this is too few...

I don't know why, but after that conversation I went to the Seeker Bar and talked to the bartender girl there. I could sense her pain and her solitude behind that helmet she wears (she said that she is ugly). So I find out that we have something in common, we are loners and we have lack of faith or hope. So I've written her an anonymous letter and left it at the door. I hope she'll find it and she'll answer it.

3 - I left a letter to the Seekers. I'm trying to contact some of these guys to help me fill some spaces in Jon's life.

Angus

Entry #4 - The Plague

So we have the rotten plague taken over our city. Our? I never felt that the city was mine at all. I just want to get out of here, maybe I should talk with my brother's former companions, the Seekers. Well, I was talking about the plague, I got luck for a good time by not becoming infected but this luck face it's end today. Luckly, some crystal was found and put at the Seekers Hall building. It does not heal us from the disease but provides a relieve from it's consequences.

Ah, I think I've found my first friend here in town. It's a druid named Padril, a good fella indeed. We don't talk to much but it's someone I can trust, I helped him in some jobs and he did the same for me. As long as he doesn't start with some crap talk I'll consider him a good company.

About Tandra, she answered my letter and I think she was a little harsh, something a little different of her behaviour at the bar at the Seekers Hall, where she acts as a poor soul that nobody loves and that is too ugly to show up in public. So, I've sended another letter trying to explain my intentions but I've had to do something that I don't like at all: I tried to analyze her way of thinking and acting. Well, I told her, at the end of the letter, that it could be the second one or the last one. It's up to her.

About my other friend, Drezira or something, I've found a pipe in some adventure and I've picked that up to give her as a present, since she listened to me that day. But I don't have her answer yet.

About Jon, well, I'm still gathering gold and equipment before I'll get back to the Pyrimo Inn again.

Angus

Entry #5 - An answer?

Today something different happened amongst all the same things I usually do, I've met a Lady. She said that she was friend with my brother and that was our first talk and nothing more than that. After it we fougth aside in some jobs till we went to defend the dunwarren stairs against the constant undeads attack.

We were there with one Orc and two friends, a guy and a girl and the things got ugly. I told them to hold a line and face the undeads togheter but they didn't listen to me. The Orc and the other people ran into the darkness and I found myself surrounded by those evil creatures. I did good and re-killed a whole bunch of them but I had to retreat when I saw her fall. I healed my wounds and came back to that hell, a real mess where we should have a battlefield.

I've manage to defeat the undeads that were wandering there, togheter with the mad girl and the crazy guy. The Orc was dead. The Lady was lying down, unconscious. She woke up and I told her to get back to Town with me, after I talked to the Watch that asked for our help. So she did.

When we were leaving the ruins I told her that I had spent all my healing potions when she tried to give me one of hers. I smiled for the first time since I arrived at Sanctuary, for the first time in years to tell you the truth. We talked and we found ourselves in front of each other, very close to each other. I told something to her and then I saw a tear falling through her cheek. Without even notice I was with my hand in her face, trying to dry the droping tear. She took my hand and I told her to take care. She told me that she'll going to spent some time at the Blue Mushroom to put her mind straigth. I told her that I would like to visit her and talk a little. I felt something strange, something so far away in time, something that warmed my heart and my soul and I feared it. I'm accustomed facing evil creatures, feared a little girl and feared my feelings about her. I know where this kind of feeling can lead a man.

Now I'm divided in exactly two parts. One wants to talk to her, to be with her, to embrace her, the other wants to avoid her sight and all the dangerous feelings that she provokes on me. I don't know what to do. I prefer to face the rotten plague than face my own feelings right now. Her name is Annael.

Now I must talk to Miss Dezria, I think is a little earlier to tell her that maybe I have an answer for her question, maybe I fear the answer, but I cannot avoid to think about that. What do I enjoy to do when I'm not working? What do I like? An image comes in my mind.

Angus Jovem

Entry #6 - The Puzzle

I've found Mr. Snorri today. We had a very strange meeting and I have reasons to not trust him at all, not totally I mean, there's something odd about that dwarf. Let's enumerate:

1 - I've met him by accident and I've asked him about a dwarf named Snorri. He didn't told me that he was Snorri at the first place. He tried to hide that from me. Later he said that he was just trying to protect himself but I have reasons to not trust in that.

2 - He was with the letter I've sended him some days ago but he didn't answered that letter, why? He was trying to avoid a contact? That fact is also very odd.

3 - We were talking at the city gates. He invited me to follow him to some place that I don't know where is. Why he tried to avoid talking with me in front of some witnesses like the Watch Privates that protect the city gates? I do not have to tell you that i did not followed him because I feared an ambush.

4 - He talked that he knew that Jon was dead but he told me that he was not there when Jon was dead. And that's very odd. He said that he knew about it by some Orc which name he claimed that he couldn't remember because some kind of spell. Almost if he was protecting someone and by someone I meant the mysterious Orc.

Nevertheless, he gave me names. Names that I'm smart enough to not write down here. He told me who is guilty in Jon's death and told me the name of someone that could help me in hunt the murderer. I'll contact him soon. After that he asked me to not talk about his name with anybody as he had fear of something or someone. Some pieces of the puzzle are taking it's places but we have a long way till I can reach my objectives.

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About my own life, I've talked to Miss Dezria and she told me everything that I wanted to hear. To follow my feelings about Annael. I'm convinced now that this was a trick of my mind against myself. I already knew the answer that she could give me for my question. I've cheated, on my own game, against myself. This fact can only emphasize the danger that this kind of feeling represents. I don't know what to do.

Angus Jovem

Entry #7 - Love and Knights

Yesterday was a full day. I did not fought a single foe but I did a lot of things. I'll start to talk about the most important one: Annael.

I met her at Rock and she said that she was feeling weak so I took her to the Hold where she could have some bless and feel a little better. After that I told her that I was in need to talk with her and she suggested a quiet place outside the city gates. A peacefull place that for now on has a huge value for me. We sit there and I was not able to start the talk properly. I told her that I have three friends since I've arrived at Sanctuary and I named them, Mr. Padril, Miss Dezria and her. Then I told her that my feelings about her were a little bit different from the ones about the others. I told her that she means a lot to me and that I was always concerned about her happiness and health and that she was always on my mind since that day.

Somehow, the conversation took a path and I found myself talking about my feelings. He asked me how many times I loved in my life and I said that there were just two times and in the first one I got nothing but pain. After a little talk about corage to expose ourselves to other people she asked about my second love. I answered that I didn't know since I couldn't not foresee the future. I told her that I was falling in love with her. Without giving time to her for say something I told her that I was okay with that, and that she didn't need to say me nothing, I was just happy to tell her. I really thougth that she would just say that we were just friends and that kind of talk.

Suddenly she kissed me and I became worried and stunished, so I looked into her eyes in a search for a look of pitty or love. I was hopping to get the first but, I've found the second. So I took her hand and gently got her up and embraced her. Then I've kissed her again, intensitly, and she melted on my arms. I started to talk when she shushed me and we kissed again. I was tolding her that she had my heart and my soul forever. I'm very happy, I'll never will forget that day, that moment, that place. I'm missing her already. I've finally found love.

Before that I've joined the Toboerski House, I'll talk about that later.

Angus Jovem

Entry #8 - In the jail

Today I've got arrested by fighting in front of the Town Hall. All started in a job little late earlier. I've head to there answering to a sending maded by some guy. As we got there I've asked whom will be with me at the frontline. Just one fella answered affirmatively. After that I've asked for a priest to give me some blesses or mind protection. He asked me if I was ready to open my heart and follow some god. I told him that I do not follow any god so he refused to help me. For my turn I told him to be in the frontline and I leaved the group. Someone muttered something about cowardice. I told them that since we were a group we must coolaborate with each other.

Later, in front of the Town Hall he called me a coward so I've punched him several times. Someone gave me a hold spell and the things started to cool down. Well, the same guy that I've punched challenged me to a fight till death. I took the challenge and beat him down. After that, the spellguard together with the Watch arrested me where I paid a fine and finally left the jail. The second stupid that I had to beat down since I've arrived here. I hope that fact spreads so the jerks will remember my name and have a little more respect or suffer the consequences.

Talking about good things, I've spoken with Miss Dezria and told her that I've got her answer: Annael. She's the reason of joy and happiness in my life when I'm not fighting. I am in deeply love with her and I really want that things goes well between us. I'm thinking in writing down a letter to her, I've discovered that maybe I have something in common to my half-brother: I like to write and maybe I am better in doing it that I could imagine. Miss Dezria told me that.

About the Toboerski Knigths, I must talk with Sir Melrick again, it was him that invited me to join the House and he also told me, after a great test, that he sees lots of potential on me. Well, I'm a honored man and a good fighter, I cannot deny it.

Angus

Entry #9 - A Key

I was doing a job yesterday when I've found,definitely by accident, a key. A key that will help me finding and meeting my brother slayer. We were fighting some Troglodytes when we started to find someone elses belongings, maybe a group with no sufficient skills or luck. I think the key should be of one of them but now it's in my hand. I'll use it soon.

After that I've met Annael, later at the Rock Bottom Inn, we had a conversation at the Rock Hall and then we went to Grotto. I told her some beautiful things that impressed me (i never was good with words) but this is some kind of witchcraft from her over me. I told her, this is a kind of witchcraft I can live with and really enjoy. At the end of the conversation I even made a joke, I do not remember the last time I did that. She said some pretty things to me too and then we kissed again. I never felt so happy since I was born, I'm deeply in love with her.

About the Toboerki House, I did not met Sir Melrick anymore and everybody tell me that all the members of the House are dead, well, I'm still alive and I'll try to investigate what really happened.

Angus

Entry #10 - The Journey

I've decide to do a little journey through the not so frequented paths of underdark. Yesterday I've got hurt by some Trolls that I accidentally met at the road. It was a small group and I managed to defeat some of them when the others, maybe surprised by my resistence, preferred to just run away. But as I said before, I did not escape from there without serious wounds.

Happily, I've met someone else just after that, a Dwarf that was hunting down the same Trolls I've fougth and he helped me. Happily again he said me that he was heading to Sanctuary in order to buy some supplies, so I asked him to deliver a letter to Annael, whom I miss so much.

Now I've found a safe place where I've set a camp. I'm almost fine now and I'm almost ready to go. Till that not happens I'll just sit here and write a little. I've decided, after the fight that I'll ask Annie to marry me. Not right now, of course, but very soon I think. It's clear that we should know each other a little better but my heart cannot be that wrong about her, what I'm concerned about is the opposite. I hope that she just not stop liking me as she knows me better. I'll give her the time....

Angus

Entry #11 - The Return

I've returned to Sanctuary. My travel was a little unfruitful if we think about my research about my brother's death, but showed itself a good experience in learning combat techniques when you are alone. I've managed to save some gold too and I have some ideas in spending it. Maybe a ring.

Yesterday I was involved in dealing with a Orog attack at the canal ward. I was in the middle of something when I've heard sounds of drums coming from that direction. I arrived there and found a little army of Sanctuary citzens, some of them alive, some dead and I offerred my aid. I've joined the group and killed a good number of invaders. Unfortunatelly, because of that the lift was closed by the authorities, and now I'm stucked at Lowers.

Annael.... I thought I would met her yesterday but I got no lucky. I left her a letter at the Blue Mushroom. I miss her. Ah, I also left a letter to Sir Baldev, at the Rock. I want to know about the situation of our House.

Angus

Entry 12 - The greedy paladin

Today I went to a work together with some halflings and a Paladin. I did not like his behaviour since from the beginning when he said that some of the halflings had evil nature. I told him that we were a group and we should trust each other or stay. The discussion was finished when he agreed with my opinion. In the middle of the hunt he started again with the evil-good talk though.

He offerred himself to pick up the treasures that the Troglodytes had and I said that it was okay for me. I did not like his acts and his way of saying things, but I did not say a thing. When we finished the job he said that he'll choose first, the spoil, since he was the one that carried it. I've found that strange, nobody asked him to pick, he offerred himself.

Well, the loot was almost shared when he said that he'll pick a whip to destroy, since it had an evil nature. Some of the halflings objected to that and then I pick it up. I said that for me, he was the evil there, since he was greedy and since he never used a polite way of saying things, for me and for the others in the group. Evil is a way of seeing things, for me, not being polite and being greedy is bad, is evil.

I was just leaving when something occurred in my mind. I told him that if the destruction of the whip was so important to him, then it should be his first pick at the start of the sharing. He did not said nothing, proving that I was right.

The funny thing here is that I have something more in common with my brother, a personal sense of justice and evil or good.

I still don't have news about Annael, I'm starting to think that bad things must be happened to her, but I'll wait as I did my whole life.

Angus

Entry #13 - Annael

I've met her today. It was a little odd. I did not know how to react. I wanted to hug her but I did not know if my feelings would be retributed. She gave me her hand and I took it, but I think she wanted me to kiss it. I did nothing, just took it and hold it. We went to the book shop to talk, the owner was dead. I left the place to call an authority. We went to another place and the converstation was a little odd. I think she was mad with me because I went to travel without saying a properly good bye. I don't know. I told her that I just did that because I did not want to risk any other necks but mine in my adventure, specially her neck. I told her that I'm still in love with her. She did not said the same to me. She only said the she knew it, that she saw it in my eyes.

That's the real problem in relationships. We never know what to expect from the other part. In all my dreams when we met again we would embrace each other and we would be happy and in peace. I think that the feelings that she had for me, or the feelings that her thought that she had for me, just vanished or change. And I was thinking of asking her to marry me. I'm happy that I did not. I would look more stupid than I looked when I said her that I still love her and she just said "I know". Well, I've learned to be alone during my whole life. I'll just have to go back to that routine. I'll forget her. The only wounds I can handle well is the ones made by swords, arrows and the other weapons. There's no space left on my heart for the others, the love wounds.

Angus

Entry #14 - The Duelist

I was a stupid. The only one who never let me down, the only one who was always there for me was my sword. She was there for me again. Some days ago I went to a job with a good group. I was the only real fighter there, carrying a real melee weapon but we did a good work. At the end of it, some guy asked me to fight him at the arena and the winner would gain an amount of 400 gold pieces. I told him that I would fight him, but I'll just bet 200 gold pieces. No spells and no potions allowed. He agreed to that and asked for just one spell. I said that it was okay as soon as he casts the same spell on me. So he did. He is a good fighter, but he doesn't has the combat initiative, he just waited for me to make a move and counter attacks. This is no way of fighting. He blocked some of my strokes and hit me sometimes, but I've won the battle and then he paid me. I offered him my hand, since he was an honored fighter but he refused and just asked me to fight him again, another day.

Today I met him again and the same situation occurred. He asked me to fight him and I told that we'll bet the same amount. To give him the chance to recover his gold. He agreed, but I said that this time I did not want any spells, for any of us. I won again and this time it was more easy than the other time. At the end of the duel he asked me to fight him again another day. I said that we were true and I'd not do it again. He just mumbled something and left. I do not want to take all his money, I gave him the chance to recover it and that's all, I'm a honored and a fair man. Now I had fought 5 duels, with 5 wins and no loss.

I was a jerk to prefer the company of a Lady instead of my sword. She never answer my questions and she never talk to me. But I can trust her. She'll never let me down, she's always with me. She'll never hurt me.

Angus

Entry #15 - Annael Again

I've met her again. I was selling some itens that I had accumulated during my adventures when she appeared in front of me and embraced me as tightly as my armor allowed. She also apologized for that other day, she said something about being forgotten that she was not back at home. I don't know really, but I think she was talking about manners and ways of behaviour that she was used to. It was that what happened in the other day, when she gave me a hand and said something rough to me when I asked her for a hug.

She was in a hurry, departing for a job, helping some friends and we did not have the proper time to talk, I just gave her some orientations and some good wishes but she said something that become marked in my heart and my soul, something like a scar maded with fire, she said "I feel the same way". I have to be sincere with you, my non living friend. I was cheating you and I was cheating me. I was just sad about her and what happened that day. I've decided something and that's clear in my mind. I want to have a wife, I want to have children, I want to have a family. All that I've done already and all that I'll do in the future, for this city and for the people that live here, all that, someone with my blood will see and continue. If our people will reach the surface or if our people will live here forever I do not know, but I believe that I'm contributing to change this land, our little world, in a better place. My children will live in that world, and I only want one woman to be their mother. That woman is called Annael. The one I love. So here comes the truth: I love the sword because she guarantees my life, but I love Annael best because she makes me want to live.

Angus

Entry#16 - The Orogs Fort

Yesterday I got called to aid in raiding one Orog fort. We had a strong group with me, one Orc and one Dwarf at the frontline, together with a Knight, plus some Monk fighter, a Priest and a Mage. The Orogs resisted with all their men, as one could expect since they were defending their home. The fight was furious and I spent all my supplies, mostly because of the Orog fire, they're swords did not wound me in real. We have won but two of our companions fell at the battlefield: the Monk and the Priest. The first one, named Babu, was raised by a priest at the Hold, the other one I do not know, the Dwarf took his body.

The mission was not successful in terms of profits, we did not had a rogue and many of the Orogs chests couldn't be opened. It was like we have paid to do a job. Nevertheless we helped the men at Fort Mur and we helped a giant too, that was kept prisioner at the Orogs Fort. I'm happy that I managed to go back to that hot place and come back walking this time, since the last time I went there I fell too. We had a better group this time, we look for each other and everyone made your best. It's always a pleasure to fight aside honored and brave men.

Changing subject, I almost bought a ring yesterday, an engagement one. Almost because I do not want to hurry and because I need to talk to Annael first, I want to know which Annael is the real one, the rough one or the kind one... We did not met yet, since I wrote her a letter with a copy of my Journal Entry #15. I'll wait like I did my whole life.

Angus

Entry #17 - Cooling Down

Today was another day without seeing her. I really don't know where she is and I'm starting to think that she's avoiding me. The things are cooling down, I think. I know that when I see her again I will feel something, but our moments together just look like a good dream to me now... I really don't know...

Looking back to my brother's notes I just started to wonder if there's something wrong with the Jovems men. It's odd to think about that since our father got married twice, with a human woman (my mother) and with a elf one (Jon's). Looks like we did not inherit his way with the ladies.

I must talk to Annael, must talk real soon, and ask her what's going on. I'm a man of action, I do not like to just wait and do nothing, I like to control my destiny and my life.

Talking about my professional life I must tell you that I feel stronger than ever... I'm fighting better and feeling almost ready to avenge my brother.

Angus

Entry #18 - Bad Taste

Today I went to a job together with the one that my brother loved. She was the leader. A lousy leader I must say. I was the only real fighter between them, we had no healers between us, and we depart to raid a Goblin Fortress. I don't know how my brother could love someone so irresponsible like that girl, I really don't. It might explain why he died, he had no brains.

You'll ask me why did I associate with them and I will answer with just one word: stupidity! I was there to protect someone that I thought was my friend. I'll never do something like this again. I don't need no friends and I don't need anyone around me, even Annael. That's how is gonna be for now one.

I don't need to tell you that we did not succeeded in doing the work, we just killed the guards at the walls and our "leader" voted for going back to city. I lost good part of my gold buying potions and supplies and got nothing but my life from that "job". I really need to find one soon, hope my offering as a bodyguard might be accepted by someone.

Angus

Entry #19 - The mirror

Today I went to a house haunted by evil illusionary clowns. I must say you that they hit hard for illusions but we managed to defeat them. I got seriously wounded but survived. We are heading back to town when one of my partners cried out for us to run. We went to the exit door and it was locked. We head back to the battle field and I could not trust in what my eyes saw: copies! One copy of me and another two of two of our partners.

All the group was a real mess, everyone running to where they're noses were pointing but I got the luck that someone at the group gave me a few healing potions. I drank them all and started to fight the fake ones. I was facing the copy of Pox (a very powerful orc) when my own copy started to hit me. I'll tell you, I never realized how much power there was in my strokes. He hit me just two times but it was almost enough to kill me. I'm very happy to tell you that we killed Pox double and after that we finished my own. I left the place by walking, limping a little bit it's true, but walking.

Angus Jovem

Entry #20 - Behind the Bars

I was selling my goods at the Rock Bottom Inn. They were exposed in the ground. Suddenly a gnome girl started to pick them up, in front of the Watch Officer that stays at the living room. She took one, she took two then I hit her with my sword and she lost her senses. I know, I should ask her first to drop the itens down, but I didn't do that. I hit her. I'll tell you that I had a reason, I thought she'll pick them all and just run away. So I had to act and I did. She recovered her senses then I told her that the goods were for sale and that she must drop them. And so she did.

But, some too good Lady that was there at the moment, a Paladin if I'm not wrong, do not become satisfied with the resolution of our problem and reported the occurrence to the Watch, as if he was not there and had not presenced the all scene. So, he arrested the gnome for a minor crime and arrested me too, for a serious one. I was okay with that, I did something wrong, even if one could say that I was just defending my property, but I did not resisted the order of prison. What's bothering me is the fact that the Watch offended and insulted me.

I think we really need Law Agents between us, but I did not think that those people have to use this kind of treatment with the citizens. All that I want is to be able to trust them and to see them as wise professional people. Pay attention, I'm not talking about being kind or just ask the people, I understand that the force must be used in several situations. But in that case, when the criminal do not resist being arrested, they must be professional. I'lll give you another example of that.

I was in jail taking my time, I had paid the fine. So I commented this thought of mine to one of the Officer in charge of our question. I told her the same words I told you, in the previous paragraphs. With politeness and respect. Well, she (the Officer) disagreed with me and told me that I was going to stay a little more in jail to think about my acts. Was I grounded? Did I comitted a second crime? No! I just questioned the way of working of our so mighty Law Agents. That's was my crime: asking questions and suggesting another way of dealing with people.

If you or they think that this story ends here you are both wrong. I already published a poster at the Rock and I already sended a letter to Sir Julian Fryar. Something must happen. The citizens should trust they're law agents and not fear them.

Angus Jovem

Entry #21 - The Finger Pointer and Her Mentor

Yesterday I went to job with some people. Between them were the "Too Good Lady", his mentor and one of the Civil Defense League corrupt member. Another that was there was Valen, a great fighter and a brave man. The Leader of the group was the one named Luther, a guy a little obsessed with order and such things, a talking one. At the start of the job he adviced me to not run alone and endanger the whole group. This advice can be explained because on day I went in a Gnolls hunt with him and, since the Gnolls are too weak, I've faced them alone. This act made him have bad impression about me. Valen insisted to him to take me to the work and so he did.

When we reach the limits of the Goblin Fortification, the too good Lady and another Priest gave their blesses to some fighters and nothing for me. I was okay with that since I think I'm strong enough to kill some goblins just with my natural power and my good and sharp sword. The problem is that she started a boring talk about her Deity and some other craps like that. She talks too much, I don't like talk I like action. Valen started to mock with them, the Deitys ones and then the confusion started.

We did the job, we killed the Goblin King and we were heading back to Sanctuary when, suddenly, the "Too Good Mentor", named Ganimus Folles, attacked Valen from behind. Valen attacked him back, defending himself, and he felt unconscious. A discussion started and I asked "Too Good Lady" if she would not make a report to the Watch, since she's a defender of the order and good behaviour. She murmured something but did not answered my question. I thought to myself: what a wonderful world! When a common guy attacks someone to defend his property it's a crime, when a Deity's man attacks someone from behind it was just self defense. They're all jerks, those people! They have a totally distorted sense of justice and they're a great trouble to our society.

After this we went to an audience with their Leader and they managed to treat Valen as the accused one, instead of the victim he was. Luckly, the Leader of the Helmites showed himself as a wise man and condemned the "Too Good Mentor", instead of him. The Civil Defense League Officer, she did not do nothing! Where's the justice here? The justice is not applicable to friends? I think not. The more the time passes, the more things I see, the more I think that we have a serious problem down here in Sanctuary and that someone has to present an attitude to solve this. Let this person be me!

Angus Jovem

Entry #22 - The Necromancer Ilithid

Today something unusual happened. I was heading to a Troll hunt together with some men that I've never seen before when someone asked our help in fighting some Vampires that were wandering near the Memorial Stone (or something like that). We went there and managed to defeat the undeads. After that we had entered in a cave where a blind woman lives and here the story begins.

She told us about a great peril. Some kind of cult that was preparing to attack Sanctuary at any moment. She said that we could find the location of it at the Sand Caves and so we depart to there. We've faced several foes at our way in like some Umber Hulk Guardians but we managed to kill all them till one of the members of the group found an entrance to some kind of Tomb.

Inside the Tomb we found several aberrations like empty headed zombies, some undeads that simply burst on fire near an invader and some regular ghosts, gouls and allips. We managed to re-kill these non natural creatures and made our way to the lower floors of the Tomb. At some floor we've found some very strong undead, that we were able to kill in a good group work. At this time I was weakened due to a ghoul curse but I could do a good job in helping my group.

After doing that we found some cells full filled of living-dead being prototypes. We started to ask ourselves what kind of sick mind would be able to think in something like that. Someone was doing experiments with the ones which were once alive. To corroborate our thoughts, just near the cells we found a laboratory containing lots of magical stuff and equipment. The only object that made me happy in that room was a purple crystal that restored my full strenght.

We continued our exploration till we found the one responsible for all that madness, an Ilithid! We had our minds protected by some woman mage named Sonya and we faced the horrible monster and we killed him. After that we found six magical portal. Sir Agenor Cempa, a furious warrior that was with us, entered one of them and so I did. The others took another one but after sometime we met again.

I don't know the name of the others very well, but the leader is one of the Lower's Councilor, a very strong warrior. We had also another fighter type besides a rogue that showed himself very useful disabling a great number or traps. At the start of the job I had a bad feeling about the group but everyone showed to be brave and honored. We have saved the City from a great peril and we've found a good amount of gold and magical equipment.

Angus Jovem