I want to have a conversation with everyone on the recovery from Death. What does it mean to actually kill someone in PvP. I'm not talking about accidents or glitches or quests, but execution style PvP. Recently I was given the opportunity to have one of those rare good deaths, it had a huge build up, massive character changes, and a death I was not only comfortable with OOCly, but ICly. Successful PvP. Works for me.
Then something happened. Firstly I began to receive the rain of tells from everyone that were entirely apologetic. This was cool, I reassure them. Then in an act of kindness? My body was handed into the hands of my closest friends by the executioners themselves. This was not done to allow them to bury me, was done to allow them to ressurrect me. Heres where my confusion really starts to gain momentum, because all of a sudden I have the option of returning to a character that I'm obviously attached to. So of course I want to, and so do the players of the character closest to me. Decision time.
I had a good death. I had full and enjoyable run. This should not have been an issue, but it is. By giving me the opportunity to come back, right after the act, removed my statisfaction. It turned the actual death into something that for me, became entirely OOC. It became, why did they kill me if they didn't care if I was alive? Is killing someone a temporary punishment? I mean, All it would do is amount to me being robbed and apparently two levels lower. It this okay? I would have been completely fine with getting beat up, robbed, and kicked out the door. Why the death? Why the almost demanded resurrection? ...I'm no longer confused.
You should not kill anyone that you do not want dead. If I had decided to return, It would have amounted only to remove the finality and significance of the death, while leaving me OOCly punished with level and loot loss. Actually, it would have the exact opposite reaction the story would have otherwise endured. I would have, instead of being submissive to the loss, I would have come back with vengance. But thats not really the point. The point is, that my appreciation of this story has been changed. It would have been a completely different thing if another character had stolen my corpse away, or huge bargains went down to have her returned at a significant loss to the characters ICly. Anything that ensures that DEATH matters.
This topic is in General discussion because I want to talk about this to the community. I'm very appreciative of the gesture they offered me, but in the flip side of the same coin, It leaves me feeling really shitty. Was killing the character so completely irrelevant? Is it okay to use these types of punishment IC? Do we want to trivialize death further?
:: Edit:: Clarification: I don't feel comfortable coming back into this character, I want to, but I'm going to end this with a permadeath. This will serve as a notice for all those waiting on my decision. ((second edit:: unless Gippy talks me out of it for what ever reason.))