What makes a great man? I have asked this question a thousand times with every step through the darkness. Is it his loyalty to old ways and traditions that no longer make sense? No.
Even with something so obvious, I can not escape the blame and the guilt placed squarely on my shoulders. Should I ever find my way back to the surface, nothing but shame awaits me. Shame, and no tales of my glorious deeds. No revelry at the eve of my victory. What then, would be the reason for returning? They are better off believing me dead, chasing some great beast forever into the horizon.
I can not escape the feeling that Mycopolis is no different. I felt at home at first. At ease. Content even. Until I began to see the same old traditions cloud the minds of all. They cling to their traditions and ways like a drowning man to a would-be rescuer, doing little more than ensuring both die a horrible watery death, a feast for the spawning seasons creatures.
I can not escape my feelings. I can not escape my dishonor.
If I can not escape them, I will slay them and bury them in the deepest corner of the plains that are my heart, so that no scavenger of my heart shall ever find them.
It is better that way. The blood of my enemies, flowing down my axe, will be the warmth that keeps my heart warm now.