12 Hammer, 1372 D.R.
The scars of devastation continue to linger across the once-pristine shores of the Isle. Efforts continue in earnest, however, to cover them, and to repair and rebuild what was damaged and taken from us. I have committed myself as best as I am able to assisting where I can, though my thoughts have wandered, and my intentions have shifted elsewhere often.
The assault upon the Isle was, and likely will remain, the most traumautic event to touch these serene shores since the Sundering. It was nearly unthinkable to us that our defenses could be breached-many had tried over the past millennia, and nearly all had failed. Yet, it is darkly ironic that one who was once one of our own-and who was once prominent among us-would betray us, and seek to bring doom to the sanctuary that had been protected for so long. His betrayal continues to inspire anger and thoughts of vengeance in our people, though his successful flight and escape has left those emotions without a target.
This trial, however, has done much to show the resilience of the people, and to rekindle the spirit of the Isle. Chief among us, the Queen's firm stance and resolute hand have continued to guide us through these dark times. Her rule is a blessing to us all, and I sincerely doubt that there will be many more who seek to challenge her right to rule in the coming days-though perhaps that is a foolish notion. There will always be those who represent the rightful authority of the Crown. Neverthless, the Queen's fortitude leaves no doubt that she will not broach any further threats against our people, or her own royal line, lightly.
The soldiers of the Isle have also displayed remarkable courage, from officers and veterans to those freshly drafted to defend the Isle. Lord Blackhelm's leadership, under the Queen's authority, has renewed vigor and inspired valor in all of the emerald warriors. Against an overwhelming tide that threatened to blanket the shores, we fought with resolve and determination-and the greatest threat the Isle has ever known was turned back.
Despite our seeming victory, however, much has changed upon the Isle. I write this to state, I suppose, that much has changed in me. I am no longer content to remain in service upon the Isle, and to attempt to rebuild an isolated nation. While I have the utmost respect for all who have committed to securing the Isle again, I simply feel that I have a different purpose now... or perhaps I am being drawn elsewhere.
The shattering of the Isle's serenity has left others, and myself, with a pressing sense of urgency to reconnect with the affairs of Faerun. The illusion of the Isle's tranquility from the remainder of Abeir-Toril has been shattered; for me, there is no mending of that transparency. Many others, however, seek to continue the Isle's seclusion, and to ignore the crush of affairs upon the mainland. I know that I cannot do this; for this reason, I commit these thoughts to this journal. For this reason, and more, I have resigned my commission and arranged to leave the Isle the following sunset.
My fellow soldiers have stated that they understand my decision, though it is an odd one to them, and to my family and House. Regardless, it has been made, and its commencement nears. Perhaps it is the call of delayed wanderlus, perhaps it is the desire to explore and see more of Faerun and Abeir-Toril, or perhaps, it is simply the desire to help where I can, and to show my people that reckless seclusion is no longer our place in the Realms. Whatever it is that I feel, I have indulged it; for better or worse, I have set foot on this journey.
It has been over half a century since I left the Cormanthor for the shores of the Isle. I left still a young, inexperienced apprentice-I return a trained soldier. Yet the apprehension I felt then is now doubled twofold, and the sense that I am resolving myself to a journey that is much greater than I am, unshakeable.
I will savor the memory of the sunset splashing and rippling upon the waters of the Trackless Sea, even as our vessel leaves the Isle for what may be the greatest adventure, or the most foolish decision, of my life. I pray to the Seldarine that I have made the proper choice.