Friend, Roleplayers, dungeon masters, hear me! I am afraid that the time has come for me to leave you all, it is nothing you have done, it is mearly the fact that im starting to disagree with some of the things i have been seeing happening, mainly stoning.

My reasons for leaving: I do not enjoy watching others (even in games!) having stones and sharp pieces of metal thrown at them until death. I have never been able to be cruel, even as my characters, and you may have noticed i modeled a character after myself; Harley, training paladin of Tyr. As those few who know Harley will know; Harley is merciful, never the first to walk into a fight but always the last to walk away, if Harley killed someone, he'd take the blame and convince the councilers to punish him, even though it never came to that because he never hurt anyone. Im saying this so you might better understand my reasons for leaving. As none of you know; i have a minor form of depression and pills keep me happy :) but recently, i have been told to up my medication and honestly, i need it. I have looked for some reason, some explanation, as to why i have been getting depressed beyond the controll of my happy-pills, i have turned on escape from the underdark. No other explanation fits, i live my life concealed in my room, fearing the outside world, i dont leave except to go to school (on high doses of happyness) yet again and again i have been thinking about the evil demonstrated on EfU. Again and again i have found my answer yet have been unable to accept it. EfU is causing further depression. I do not know why, honestly, i do not know how, but it is. Truely i have greatly enjoyed my time here, and when people were stoned it was 'okay, i can just log off now' but since one of my characters was sentencd to stoning, i have not been able to click that play button. I've been in my room, with my music, trying to drown out thoughts of suicide.

I do not want "oh, what a shame, come back soon." In fact, i DO want to keep playing here, i really, really do. But for the sake of my little piece of sanity, i have to stop.

Farewell, noble players of escape from the underdark, and know that in my passing, i have found a lighter way.

short version = me emo, me leaving.

Enjoyed your time here, make sure you enjoy your time a lighter place.

Come back whenever you think you're ready.

Later.

Good luck with the light. Some poeple have told me it can be healthy for you.

Sometimes it's good to have another hobby to occupy your time. I'm getting into music, myself.

I know what you're talking about. Constantly playing a NWN PW can suck up your life, and if you have previous issues, it can be that much worse. If you do decide to come back, make sure you're feeling better. If not, then good luck with life.

EfU and NWN in general is a hobby. A single hobby shouldn't define one's life. Find what it is that you're looking for.

Oh, and some advice about the depression and all that, my advice is to seek out a local church or religious service (even if you don't believe at first) and try to seek out some advice. Religion is an important part of many people's lives, and may help to deter depressive and/or suicidal thoughts. I don't mean to sound evangelical (I'm not) but it seems like a good idea to me.