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Saroki Lil'End's Journal

[A black tattered book lies in Saroki's pack]

Saroki was once a happy hin girl. She lived with her family on a farm in a town not to far from WaterDeep. She was always getting herself into trouble! Either it was making the market man mad , or picking the gardener's flowers. She was running down a path one night to her farm pond when she heard screams from the barn. She spinned around and ran towards to barn to see a drow with a mindflayer. She screamed as the illithid took control of her.

She woke up in the underdark , in rags. She was shackles and saw Illithid selling off her brother. She went stealthy and sneaked away. Eventually she picked off the locks to her shackles and found a gate. There she met her very first friend outside the sanctuary...

Dear Journal, Today I kept crawling through the tunnels , and I found this huge gate! I opened it and went through to find two men talking to each other. One was named Janus! He was the gate keeper , and I would run errands for him! I brought him ale , and paper , and kept him company. The Sanctuary is so big...Im happy to be safe again.

Dear Journal, My second day here! Ive found many trinkets and things. The more I learn about sanctuary the more im amazed! Ive found clothing that keeps me warm instead of the rags. Yuck! I've also ran a few Errands and earned some coin. Score One for Saroki!

Dear Journal, I hate rats! They would bite me while I was going through the tunnels! But I found this hin named Wilimek in the tavern with rat-pelts hanging over his pelt , and a rat-skull tattoo! He plays the pipes beautifuly. Is it possible for me to be feeling this way after one day??

Dear Journal, Sorry I havent written in two days. Nothing much has happening , only hanging around with Wilimek. But today was almost life-changing! The lower canal gate was under attack by Orogs. I wanted to run , but then they said they needed help. Wil was brave enough to go , So I went too. Right before we left , He said he loved me!! I told you it was life changing , cause I love him too!

Dear Journal, Today I tried to help the Goblin near the cage get a shield. But he lost it in a bet...So I ended up nearly dieing at the end. I got that far though , without a fight , so I guess my sweet-talking is making up for something. I'd never sweet talk Wilimek though!

But I was in the tavern with Belial , when something happened. We were talking about killing bugbears when this strange man came in...He started yelling at me about not hurting Mresh , the giant who nearly sent me to my doom. I was enraged because of it , So I started smart talking about doing what I want. What happened next was horrible! He took me to a jail and whipped me. I almost fell again that hour. His eyes , they were so cruel. I felt like a true slave from that moment on. And I feel like I cannot protect myself.

Dear Journal, I told Wilimek about the whipping , and he was furious. I think he was mad at me...Im not sure? But afterwards another halfling held a knife to my throat and wanted my money. I'm not the richest of hins...so I didn't have any. A nearby healer drew her weapons and he slit my throat , leaving ANOTHER scar! Well , on the upside , I found out the man who whiped me was named something Deauxfortes. Most of my friends noticed the scars and swore to kill him...That makes me feel safer.

Dear Journal, Janus thinks my whipping was just...I BEG TO DIFFER! I dont think I even want to help him anymore.

I forgot to tell you about my card readings , Journal. There are most confusing. It shows Wilimek will die sometime , I think of old age though, and Ill marry a knight who saves me. I dont want to marry some knight! (Unless the knight is Wilimek , then its okay [small winking face])

Wilimek has given me two things. A necklace of light , and a cloak. I treasure them both , and if anything were to happen to them , well...I would NOT be happy.

Speaking of Wilimek , Im afraid I might lose him. I need to toughen up a little. That whip might have scarred and changed my life , but thats no reason to lose a hin as great as him!

Dear Journal, Oi yoy yoy! Dramatic day...Everything is twisting upside down and around! Wilimek said I do not trust him when I trust him with my life...Delly , my new found friend , convinced me to not kill myself.

I also recived note that my family was found dead , killed for trying to escape. Now I really dont want to see my farm.

I had a odd dream...I was back on the farm. Deauxfortes was there. He had his whip and was staring at me with his eyes. Wilimek was off to the side , almost crying. I had two daggers in my hands and Deauxfortes went over to Wilimek. He whipped him! Almost immediatly I threw daggers at his head and killed him. Wil ran over and held me...But I felt something near my throat and smacked it. Nothing was there though. Then I woke up...scary.

Anyways..off to find Wilimek.

Dear Journal, Grrr! I dremt about him again! Tarnis Westwind is always in my dreams. Weither is killing me , or hitting me , he can kill me in one blow and it annoys the HECK out of me! Im trying to shake it off , because when I tried to defend that helpless goblin , He said he had no friends.

That goblin was annoying just a little...But he didn't do anything to anybody...Thats before HE HIT MY ENTIRE PARTY WITH A FIREBALL!!!

Yondalla has blessed me to see my deaths once I am rezed. So far Ive died...about five or six times. Tree times I died fighting undead! GRRR! Then once from that fireball the goblin threw at me. I cant remember any times else , so I guess just four really.

Im confused now...Tarnis a friend , or foe?? Is Tash (If I ever see him again) a ally or enemy?? Im even starting to question Wilimek now , WHICH I CANT!! I find myself playing with my necklace the more I think about him.

Questions ________

Is the goblin really evil? Is Tarnis going to kill me? Is Tash going to return? Is Wilimek ever going to ask that ONE question? Am I going to die , and this time be lost forever? Am I acted stupid?

Ugh...the fourth question has been burned in my mind ever sense he told me he loved me. Im kind of scared for him to ask , but kinda jumpy for him too. Whoah whoah! Just remembered...Im supposed to marry some knight person...

Maybe Wilimek will be the knight! Wait a second...OF COURSE! He already IS the knight! He has saved my life more then a just a few times!! Does that really mean Im supposed to marry him? Im not sure...But I hope so!

But enough about Wilimek. (Actually I cant get enough of Wilimek...)

Lucien Deauxfortes...there is a subject. I had another dream about him too. I dream about alot of people..Its scary.

But me and him were near town hall. Wilimek , Belial , Delly , Lisha , Layla , Sindel (HATE HER! Ill tell you why later) , Kard , Suppi , and Delor were all standing there watching us. Wilimek had a smile on his face as he looked at me. Lucien came charging at me and we engaged in a battle. I had my same daggers..but my armor was different. I somehow SLID under between his legs and FLIPPED up to avoid an attack! Just then , a bunch of goldens came charging at me from behind. But , Wilimek jumped out , and killed them ALL in ONE HIT each! Ahhh...my knight. Anyways! So Lucien came at me and whipped me real hard , and everyone was glaring at him , enraged. Wilimek kissed me on the cheek for a breif moment , and I was healed again!! Lucien started going for Wilimek , but instead , when he was running , focused on Wilimek , I stuck my dagger out and gutted the man. He fell on his knees , and died. Me and my friends who were at the scene of the battle went and had a party down in the grotto of the Rock. Belial actually carried me on his shoulders!! During the middle of the celebration , Wilimek pulled me into one of the meeting rooms. He gave me a extremely passionate kiss , and asked me to marry him!

But then I woke up...gr! So , about Sindel. I really dislike her! In all the groups Im in , if she is there , I get almost completely ignored. She is bard , so she can pick locks and see traps too. And have spells...AND have potions. But , I will say something important , like I cant disable the trap. They sit there for two minutes then ask me "Saroki , why isn't the trap off??" Grrr!!!

Well..I guess thats my life...and the events I left out of my journal.

Tarnis.. Wilimek..

If either of you ever get onto my journal , know this.

Tarnis , The first time I ever saw you , you were walking through the sanctuary gates while I was with Janus. I thought you looked like a brave warrior , strong and proud. But then I had the dream. I was scared , so I didn't want to be around. Im starting to feel you dont want to kill me , but you 'need' me. To help you control your temper. Im sorry for any sorrow I caused you.

Wilimek, I love you with all my heart , and nothing can change that. I remember the first time I saw you , too. Standing there , smiling to yourself. You said you charmed snakes out of their skin for the pelts...hehehe. I hope oneday we get married.

Well...Thats everything I can think of. Hmm....Lucien...grrr...

[small mark in blood that looks like a S , but with a snake tongue.]

[this writing is kinda messy , like she was shaken when she wrote it] Dear Journal, Today we went to a portal , which was supposed to take us to the surface. WRONG! It took us to a horrible cave filled with trogs! I died in there as well. Yondalla grants me the gift that I can tell when I die. I opened my eyes and saw Wilimek , standing over me. He held me and kissed me 1,000 times. I know for sure he really really loves me.

I told Tagnar my secret. (Tagnar is one of Wilimek's friends , he is my friend too!) I told him how my real parents neglected me and I ran away and met my new family on the farm. Nobody knows from before I was 14...Not a soul. I had to get out of the tunnels , and I struggled because I didn't want to leave Wilimek. But I had to , so I shuffled my cards and drew Chariot , and got teleported to the tavern.

I wonder what Wilimek's thoughts about me are...does he wonder what I do? I hope not , because I got even more trouble my way that I am not telling him.

A ugly , horrible , half orc came and was rude! So I spit on him and he kicked me..HARD! I think a rib is broken , but Im trying my best not to show it...its working , cause nobody has noticed it yet.

Then I dueled him..stupid me. I died , of course , because he was fives times bigger then me. Then there is Butcher..GRR! He is a golden who also wants to kill me , right away. Lucien told him not too , because HE wants to do it...stupid manling!

Thats what Wilimek calls em..Manlings. Pretty cool name huh? He also has other phrases.

Good Work! Fear the hin!

Wilimek is wonderful!

Dear Journal, Sad day , or Happy Day? I dont know! A halfling named Frem is also out for Lucien , Lucien stole something of his so we are going to secretly work together to kill him , Im going to tell Wilimek of course , but noone else. Frems plan is simply this..

He found Lucien drunk and passed out in a ally! We are going to poison some ale , and once he drinks it , make the attack.

Thats happy! But here is sad. I had a strange dream...so strange...I had a dream me and Wilimek were on the shores of the dark lake. I was sleeping next to him , and his hand went to my neck. He tries to stangle me but in my sleep , I smacked him and he stopped. He was trying not to cry , so what could this dream mean? It confuses me , Why would he want to kill me? Im going to feel unsafe sleeping next to him from now on...But I have to trust him anyways. Thats what love is about. Trust.

Lisha has me confused , at first I thought she was a friend. Now she calls me a child , and says I need to learn!! Is she my friend , my enemy , or MY MOTHER?!

Anyways. Belial was happy to see I was alive after shuffleing the cards. I have this strange feeling in me..its all tingly. Especial around Wilimek...It feels like I want to sing , and heal others. But I cannot heal , nor sing. I can only play the flute..Many ask my if im a bard...Maybe my path is a bard..? But that doesn't explain the reason I feel like shooting magic missles at enemies. Oi! Im not a wizard or a bard! Im just a hin! Sheeeeeeeeeeeeesh! ________________ ___________ __ ___

[There is a small picture of a male halfling with rat pelts around his belt..Holding a bow and smiling.]

Thats Wilimek! Cute huh? [smiley face]

[That handwritting is sharp and quick , like she was in a hurry.]

Journal, Im running to my companions! I hear sounds of battle ahead! Most of the town ran and are trying to kill something! I just got to the scene , and everything is dead and...........

[there is stone flakes on the book]

Dear Journal, Sorry about that..I got turned to stone. A wizard turned me back though. I had yet another strange dream!!

Me and Wilimek were in a black silk bed fast alseep next to each other. Three men charged in and pointed their crossbows at us! We woke up and I said something like "Blend" in halfling , and touched Wil on the shoulder. He disapeared! Then I said "Magic Shot" in halfling and four magic missles poped outta my hand! I killed one of the men , and Wilimek killed the other two. We went on search in a house , Wilimek wasn't wearing a shirt...(Thats the good part of the dream! Hehehe) I was wearing a nightdress. We toured the house , it was so big! And the garden was big too! But It was an inside garden , so I couldn't tell if we were in the underdark or not. One room , I remember was of paticular note. We walked in , and it looked like a child's playroom. A little boy about two or three years old sat up and said "Momma? Father? Whats wrong?" me and Wilimek both said "Nothing" and I added "Darling".

Then I woke up. Darling!? Momma and Father?!!? Does this mean Wilimek and I are going to get married and have kids? But that would mean he never strangled me in the first place..But that would mean Im alive...But that would...GRRR!

Story of my life in one simple word..CONFUSED. Im now afraid that I might learn arcanic arts. I found out Delly is Tagnar's adopted daughter. Delly thinks her father is disapointed in her because she turned out to be a mage , and not a fighter , like him. Now Im afraid Tagnar wont be my friend if I learn magic! But anyways , If I do learn magic , Wouldn't I be a Spell Thief? I remember my Papa saying "If you continue to to make all this trouble , and continue to make all this weird stuff happen , Your gonna be a Spell Thief like Uncle Laiy!" He would say It smileing though. I loved my family , Im sad they are dead.

At least they dont have any more torture.

But Im thinking about leaving Yondalla's service. Her voice in my head keeps saying "Clean your soul , Trust the Palidin". Trust the Palidin my arse!! If anythin' Ill convert to a new god. I think his name is Mask..Or something like that. Maybe Delly knows a bit about gods. Then again , I can ask Wilimek too , he is smart...Speaking of which I ran into Zug again. Yes he killed me , Yes I pretended not to know orc, Yes He wanted to eat me , or err...mate with me. But He growled at me so I spit at him in front of Wilimek , his reaction made me feel like Ive never done anything right in my life...Should I stand up for myself , Or ignore the fact that he wants to do bad things to me? Should I should this Hin aint afraid , or just be a wimp!? Nothing makes anybody happy!

GR! Again , story of my life in one simple word. Confused!

[the page is kind of wet , like she was crying when she wrote it] Dear Journal, Ive done it this time...Wilimek hates me...I know Tagnar will hate me once I tell him what Ive done...I have to run away...no. Worse. Im going to drink strong poison and kill myself. Wilimek is the only one I love , and he wanted to hurt me..I hate myself. Goodbye Journal.

Dear Journal, DAMNATION! Merle wouldn't leave when I was about to drink the poison , then Tagnar found me! I drank the poison , and then Merle went and got like 5 clerics! GRR! Ive nothing to live for! Sigh. Tagnar claimed he used to love me...and NOT in the child way...Strange isn't it? In one little word I destroy my world , and others. A Dwarf loving a hin?? Now he only hates me. Wilimek...Who knows? Merle conviced me...maybe he doesn't hate me. Maybe he will even try and find me?? Then again...The entire sanctuary seems to hate me. Wilimek might not want to be seen with me...Well...as my papa always said..

"People judge you by what they see , and their actions. They dont know your motives or reason. So dont care about anything of what they think."

I care...Sorry Papa.

Yet another person I've let down..

Dear Journal, Wilimek found me , and I was so scared. He wanted me to follow him , and I was in some kind of trance. My feet said yes , but my head said no. So I followed him. He took out his swords. I was so afraid he would kill me. He told me he heard about me trying to kill myself , and to not do it again. He said he needed me. So we sat in the tunnels. He held me and rocked me , and humed light tunes in my ear. When we went up the lift , he had disapeared without warning , I couldn't help but laugh! He always disapeared on me...then something good happened. Just another warning that tomorrow with be a good day!

[A picture of a hin male with rat pelts holding a hin female with pale skin and red hair]

Dear Journal, Best day of my LIFE!! Wilimek proposed!!! Of course I said yes. I love him so much , I can barely write!!!

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!

[a picture of a small hin with red hair jumping up and down with a huge smile]

Dear Journal, Well I saw this poster that Lucien posted about me....I just wrote a huge snake in the shape of S on it..Hehe. He thinks I was planning to kill the goblins and giant..I cant kill something that big , And I like goblins. Here is how it went down , journal.

Grulpo asked me to retrieve his favorite shield , and a few people were around , so I gathered them up , even though I did not know their names ,and we head off. The other goblin told me Mresh , the giant , had the shield. Mresh was huge! He wanted me to bow and not look at him , so I bowed , and didn't look up. He wanted me to battle one of his gladiators for his amusement , or he would kill me. So I agreed , and lost. Tough goblin. So I was healed , and we left , without the shield. Poor Grulpo...poor giant..poor goblins! Thats when Lucien barged in when we were talking about hobgoblins.

And so forth...anyways , Ive told him I was trying to help the goblins , not destroy them! Mass murder my arse!! I could never kill a giant 10 times bigger then me , and 100 times stronger!! As far as sending three men to kill him...uhhh no.

I cant kill him either, he is to powerful , and I know that. I wouldn't send people to kill someone like him anyways. But he was drunk and started chasing after me and Wilimek. He kept saying 'Wheres the whore...cmere whore!' and stuff like that.

Kill the goblins...Mass murder...kill the giant..

Why the hell would I do that if I have some ass-hole breathin' down my neck!?!?!

Dear Journal, An exciting day! Wilimek saved me from death against the undead. Afterwards a DRAGON CAME! He is Abele's son. His name is Rocky. He kept saying stuff like..."Sir Wilimek the Fierce , how do you get little peoples?" It was so funny...yet embarressing. Wil wants Rocky to call him sir Wilimek the fierce...and well..rocky did. Im surprised he didn't ask to come with us to get the 'little peoples'

HA! To funny...But then something strange happened. I wanted it to be light in my tavern room. A light came on. I wanted Wil to be protected...resistance was on him. I wanted to have better armor...mage armor was on me! Sindel told me I have power in the arcanic arts. Hm?

Anyways...Sir Wilimek the Fierce is around somewhere..better find him!

[a picture of a surprised hin female shooting a ice ray at a bed with wide eyes and a gasping mouth]

Dear Journal, Rocky is too funny. He bugged Wilimek about children , and he said 'You take two people who are in love , leave them alone , when you come back , there are three people.' The first two are correct...anyways , I told rocky babies come from dragon slime...hehehehe! He freaked out! Sooner or later Abele will tell him where they REALLY come from. So Im starting to talk like Wil and Tagnar. Im going 'Ey and stuff. Im starting to be more like Wilimek in the means of being called short. This stupid teifling that tried to strangle me yesterday called us 'Small Creature'. Soon or later Im going to call him 'Freak'. See how he likes it!! I wanna pull his dancing tail away from him!

[Picture of a laughing female hin with a freaked-out deep dragon]

Dear Journal, I have one weird dream...two actually.

First Dream

I was lying in the woods , and it was very sunny. Very warm too! I was on a blanket , in a red dress with my eyes closed. Wilimek ran to me wearing no shirt (SWEET!) and some long pants. He was carrying a buncha colorful roses. I sat up and looked at him. He handed me the roses and sat next to me. We smiled to each other and he kissed me lightly.

That was the nice dream. Here is the Second Dream.

I was in a grey nightshirt and shorts , and running like mad throught some dark woods. The branches were reaching at me like trying to grab me , and the moon seemed to follow me like a stalker! Tears were streaming down my eyes , and blood was all over me. Finally I collapsed near a tree and was panting. I heard a horrible whip lash as a striking pain came on my leg! I looked down and saw blood just going everywhere. Lucien came from behind the tree , whip in hand...and...Wilimek in the other. He dropped Wilimek...and he wasn't moving. He whipped at me again..oh the pain! It hurt like hell! Wilimek wasn't breathing. I couldn't see because of tears. And Lucien had a horrible smirk on his face. He reached behind him , and Tagnar and Delly were thrown in front of me..dead! He pointed behind me , and I turned around to see Belial...Wisp..that Gnomish Elf , Delor , Froppin , Frum , Dajh , and many more I could not tell who they were , all dead. Dead in front of me , Killed my Lucien as he whipped me one more. I was crying and blinded. Hurt , Sad. Then Lucien's eyes got wide and he fell forward , his back bleeding. A young hin was standing behind him , with a blood-covered dagger in his hand. He yelled "Mother!!" and hugged me. I hugged him back..and then he touched Wilimek , and he stood up. The young hin..apparently my son , cause he called me mother , went and raised the others as Wilimek held and kissed me.

First a beautiful forest , then a nightmare. I think Im figuring out what these dreams mean. Its either what I fear most , or wish to happen. Confusing much?

[A picture of a male hin without a shirt on handing a female hin a bunch of roses in a beautiful forest]

[a picture of a bleeding female hin , looking scared to death with a human holding a whip in woods that look like your nightmares with dead bodies everywhere.]

Help.

[The writing is written sharp and quick.]

Dear Journal, This magic stuff is hard! I mean , damn!! And what in the hells is nightshade?

Wilimek worries for Tagnar , and I do to. Last time I saw Wilimek , I left without any warning. I needed to think...So many thoughts raced through my head!

Again...

Help.

Dear Journal, Ive been sick the past few days , but finally found Wilimek. We hanged in the grotto a little , and Im brushing his hair now , so....See ya in a bit.

Dear Journal, Okay...I asked Wil about the dream where he strangled me again..I poisoned myself..Delly and Tagnar hate me...I swore on Mask that I wouldn't do it again...Im trying to just stay out of trouble...

Note to self...Dont Fack up your life before it even begins!

[In red writing are big bolded letters...It looks a little like blood]

HELP!!!!

This is it...Im leaving Sanctuary. Goodbye everyone!! WISH ME LUCK ON THE SURFACE!!!

[The journal is buryed under the Rock bottom tavern..never to be written in again}